2008年12月27日星期六

正好一男一女,两篇

发信人: www1366 (天高云淡), 信区: FamilyLife标 题: 我奋斗了18年,不是为了和你一起喝咖啡(zt)发信站: 水木社区 (Sat Dec 27 09:52:38 2008), 站内
3年前,麦子的一篇《我奋斗了18年才和你坐在一起喝咖啡》引起多少共鸣,一个农家子弟经过18年的奋斗,才取得和大都会里的同龄人平起平坐的权利,一代人的真实写照。然而,3年过去,我恍然发觉,他言之过早。18年又如何?再丰盛的年华叠加,我仍不能和你坐在一起喝咖啡。
那年我25,无数个夙兴夜寐,换来一个硕士学位,额上的抬头纹分外明显,脚下却半步也不敢停歇。如果不想让户口打回原籍,子子孙孙无穷匮,得赶紧地找份留京工作。你呢?你不着急,魔兽争霸2和红色警戒?早玩腻了!你野心勃勃地筹划着“创业创业”。当时李彦宏、陈天桥、周云帆,牛人们还没有横空出世,百度、Google、完美时空更是遥远的名词,可青春所向披靡不可一世,你在校园里建起配送网站,大张旗鼓地招兵买马,大小媒体的记者蜂拥而至。334寝室很快在全楼名噪一时,小姑娘们从天南地北寄来粉粉的信纸,仰慕地写道:“从报上得知你的精彩故事……”得空,爬上楼顶吹吹风,你眉飞色舞地转向我,以照顾自己人的口气说,兄弟,一起发财如何?
好呀,可惜,我不能。创业于你,是可进可退可攻可守的棋,启动资金有三姑六眷帮忙筹集,就算铩羽而归,父母那三室一厅、温暖的灶台也永不落空。失败于我,意味着覆水难收一败涂地,每年夏天,为了节省三五百块钱的机器钱,爹娘要扛着腰肌劳损在大日头下收割5亩农田。我穿着借来的西服完成了第一次面试,戴着借来的手表与心爱的女孩进行了第一次约会。当你拿到了第一笔投资兴奋地报告全班时,我冷静地穿越大半个北京城,去做最后一份家教。没错,“这活儿技术含量忒低”,但在第一个月工资下发前,我租来的立锥之地与口粮全靠它维持。
不多久,互联网就遭遇了寒流,你也对创业意兴阑珊,进了家国有性质的通信公司,我被一家外企聘用。坐井观天的我,竟傻傻地以为扳回了一局。明面上的工资,我比你超出一截,税后8000,出差住5星级宾馆,一年带薪休假10天。玩命一样地投入工作,坚信几年后也有个童话般的结尾,“和公主过上幸福的生活”。
好景不长,很快,我明白了为什么大家说白领是句骂人的话。写字楼的套餐,标价35,几乎没人搭理它。午餐时间,最抢手的是各层拐角处的微波炉,“白领”们端着带来的便当,排起了长长的队伍。后来,物业允许快餐公司入住,又出现了“千人排队等丽华”的盛况。这些月入近万的人士节约到抠门的程度。一位同事,10块钱的感冒药都找保险公司理赔;另一位,在脏乱差的火车站耗上3个小时,为的是18:00后返程能多得150元的晚餐补助。
这幕幕喜剧未能令我发笑,我读得懂,每个数字后都凝结着加班加点与忍气吞声;俯首帖耳被老板盘剥,为的是一平米一平米构筑起自己的小窝。白手起家的过程艰辛而漫长,整整3年,我没休过一次长假没吃过一回鸭脖子;听到“华为25岁员工胡新宇过劳死”的新闻,也半点儿不觉得惊讶,以血汗、青春换银子的现象在这个行业太普遍了。下次,当你在上地看见一群人穿着西装革履拎着IBM笔记本奋力挤上4毛钱的公交车,千万别奇怪,我们就是一群IT民工。
惟一让人欣慰的是,我们离理想中的目标一步步靠近。
突如其来地,你的喜讯从天而降:邀请大家周末去新居暖暖房。怎么可能?你竟比我快?可豁亮的100多平方米、红苹果家具、37寸液晶大彩电无可质疑地摆在眼前。你轻描淡写地说,老头子给了10万,她家里也给了10万,老催着我们结婚……回家的路上,女朋友郁郁不说话,她和我一样,来自无名的山城。我揽过她的肩膀,鼓励她也是鼓励自己,没关系,我们拿时间换空间。
蜜月你在香港过的,轻而易举地花掉了半年的工资,回来说,意思不大,不像TVB电视里拍的那样美轮美奂;我的婚礼,在家乡的土路、乡亲的围观中巡游,在低矮昏暗的老房子里拜了天地,在寒冷的土炕上与爱人相拥入眠。幸运的是,多年后黯淡的图景化作妻子博客里光芒四射的图画,她回味:“有爱的地方,就有天堂。”
我们都想给深爱的女孩以天堂,天堂的含义却迥然不同。你的老婆当上了全职太太,每天用电驴下载《老友记》和《越狱》;我也想这么来着,老婆不同意,你养我,谁养我爸妈?不忍心让你一个人养7个人。当你的女孩敷着倩碧面膜舒服地翘起脚,我的女孩却在人海中顽强地搏杀。
两个人赚钱的速度快得多。到2004年年底,我们也攒到了人生中第一个10万,谁知中国的楼市在此时被魔鬼唤醒,海啸般狂飙突进,摧毁一切渺小虚弱的个体。2005年3月,首付还够买西四环的郦城,到7月,只能去南城扫楼了。我们的积蓄本来能买90平方米的两居来着,9月中旬,仅仅过去2个月,只够买80多平。
没学过经济学原理?没关系。生活生动地阐释了什么叫资产泡沫与流动性泛滥。这时专家跳出来发言了,“北京房价应该降30%,上海房价应该降40%。”要不,再等等?我险些栖身于温吞的空方阵营,是你站出来指点迷津:赶快买,房价还会涨。买房的消息传回老家,爹娘一个劲儿地唏嘘:抵得上俺们忙活半年。在他们看来,7500元一平方米是不可思议的天价。3年后的2008,师弟们纷纷感叹,你赚大发了,四环内均价1万4,已无楼可买。
几天前,我看见了水木上一句留言,颇为感慨:“工作5年还没买房真活该,2003年正是楼市低迷与萧条之时。等到今天,踏空的不仅是黄金楼市,更是整个人生。”
真要感谢你,在我不知理财为何物之时,你早早地告诉我什么叫消费什么叫投资。
并非所有人都拥有前瞻的眼光和投资的观念。许多和我一样来自小地方、只知埋头苦干的兄弟们,太过关注脚下的麦田,以至于错过一片璀璨的星空。你的理论是,赚钱是为了花,只有在流通中才能增值,买到喜爱的商品,让生活心旷神怡。而我的农民兄弟——这里特指是出身农家毕业后留在大城市的兄弟,习惯于把人民币紧紧地捏在手中。存折数字的增长让他们痴迷。该买房时,他们在租房;该还贷时,他们宁可忍受7%的贷款利率,也要存上5年的定期。辛苦赚来的银子在等待中缩水贬值。他们往往在房价的巅峰处,无可奈何地接下最后一棒;也曾天真地许愿,赚够100万就回家买房。可等到那一天真的到来,老家的房价,二线、三线城市甚至乡镇的都已疯长。
这便是我和你的最大差别,根深蒂固的分歧、不可逾越的鸿沟也在于此。我曾经以为,学位、薪水、公司名气一样了,我们的人生便一样了。事实上,差别不体现在显而易见的符号上,而是体现在世世代代的传承里,体现在血液里,体现在头脑中。18年的积累,家庭出身、生活方式、财务观念,造就了那样一个你,也造就了这样一个我,造就了你的疏狂佻达与我的保守持重。当我还清贷款时,你买了第二套住房;上证指数6000点,当我好容易试水成为股民,你清仓离场,转投金市;我每月寄1000元回去,承担起赡养父母的责任,你笑嘻嘻地说,养老,我不啃老就不错了;当我思考着要不要生孩子、养孩子的成本会在多大程度上折损生活品质时,4个老人已出钱出力帮你抚养起独二代;黄金周去一趟九寨沟挺好的了,你不满足,你说德国太拘谨美国太随意法国才是你向往的时尚之都……
我的故事,是一代“移民”的真实写照——迫不得已离乡背井,祖国幅员辽阔,我却像候鸟一样辗转迁徙,择木而栖。现行的社会体制,注定了大城市拥有更丰富的教育资源、医疗资源、生活便利。即便取得了一纸户口,跻身融入的过程依然是充满煎熬,5年、10年乃至更长时间的奋斗才获得土著们唾手可得的一切。曾经愤慨过,追寻过,如今,却学会了不再抱怨,在一个又一个缝隙间心平气和。差距固然存在,但并不令人遗憾,正是差距和为弥补差距所付出的努力,加强了生命的张力,使其更有层次更加多元。
可以想见的未来是,有一天我们的后代会相聚于迪斯尼(这点自信我还是有的),讲起父亲的故事,我的那一个,虽然不一定更精致更华彩,无疑曲折有趣得多。那个故事,关于独立、勇气、绝地反弹、起死回生,我给不起儿子名车豪宅,却能给他一个不断成长的心灵。我要跟他说,无论贫穷富贵,百万家资或颠沛流离,都要一样地从容豁达。
至此,喝不喝咖啡又有什么打紧呢?生活姿态的优雅与否,不取决于你所坐的位置、所持的器皿、所付的茶资。它取决于你品茗的态度。
我奋斗了18年,不是为了和你一起喝咖啡。
--男人谨记:一定要吃好玩好睡好喝好,一旦别的男人累死了,就花他的钱,住他的房,睡他的老婆,泡他的女朋友,还打他的娃;女人谨记:一定要吃好玩好睡好喝好,一旦自己累死了,就会让别的女人花咱的钱,住咱的房,睡咱的老公,泡咱的男朋友,还打咱的娃.
※ 修改:·www1366 于 Dec 27 10:13:34 2008 修改本文·[FROM: 203.93.226.*]※ 来源:·水木社区 http://newsmth.net·[FROM: 203.93.226.*]

发信人: qianning (纤凝), 信区: Memory标 题: 突岩深缝妙香稠-我曾是一个贫困生mm发信站: 水木社区 (Sat Dec 13 13:32:47 2008), 站内
今天忽然想起高中班主任送我的这句诗,然后想起高三到大学的岁月。那几年,我曾是一个贫困生,一个贫困的mm。
其实我家本来不贫困,高三那年母亲患了脑癌,父亲因为照顾母亲失掉了工作,治病花完了所有的积蓄,结果母亲还是在我大一的寒假走了。高三的时候母亲动了第一次脑外科手术,结果效果不好,接着动第二次,四处求医问药。记得在外地求医的时候,父亲舍得买800多的药却舍不得多给自己买一碗4块钱的刀削面。那时候,每碗鸡蛋西红柿面都吃得很心酸。高三最后冲刺的时候,同学们都开始补充营养。我是自己做饭,还偶尔骑车到医院给父母送饭。高考的那三天,同学的家长都做了各种营养餐送到考场,我啃的是父亲买来的面包(面包很好吃,父亲夹了很多菜。)要说我真幸运,能如愿考到北师大,还在母亲去世之前把大红的录取通知书拿给她看。她虽然已经不会说话,但脸上是久违的灿烂的笑。
高三要买很多复习题,那时候家里到处都需要钱,我实在没法跟父亲开口。到了交费的时候,我连130块钱也拿不出来,只好悄悄跑到班主任老师那里恳求她缓一缓。班主任心肠好,问了情况,帮我垫了钱,再也不要我还。还有那时候教政治课的老师,在办公室里跟我说:“以后你的复习材料我帮你买,不要紧。”所以我高三后期的很多复习题都是免费的。
大学开学了,我拿着家里凑的3000块钱,其实基本都是舅舅的钱,由舅舅送我到了北京。那时候师大是不用学费的,但是交完900多的住宿费,买完各种生活用品,就只剩不到2000了。这3000元是我大学里跟家里要的唯一一笔钱,以后再也没要过。我每月的饭钱最多90块,一天不到3块钱。我发现白菜、豆腐、豆芽这些菜,半份才4毛钱,而且营养还好。那时候经常用的化妆品,就是师大商店里四块还是五块钱一瓶的“黄瓜洗面奶”,因为香皂实在太干了。说到这儿,很多mm都会笑吧。衣服大部分都没超过40块钱。那时候最常去的地方是西单附近的“民族大世界”,因为可以讲价,很多时候居然可以买到15块钱的衣服和裤子。记得有一次买到一件60块钱的浅黄色小西服,穿着很好很喜欢,狠心买下以后,硬是难过了几个月。最尴尬的是有一次帮同学打饭,打完之后很多天她都没有还我钱,因为1块多钱实在是个小数目,不值一提。可是对我,是两顿早饭了。所以第二次她再让我帮着打饭的时候,我就找了个理由推脱了。这么多年,这些往事大概她早就忘了吧,我很想对她说一声对不起。
那时候系里发贫困生补助的时候,班主任让每个申请人当着全班的面谈谈自己为什么贫困。记得我说得泣不成声,很多申请的同学也是。那样的要求现在是无法想象的,因为当时拿到的补助,不过是一次性的100元钱。而我们,都只有不到19岁。19岁,正是自尊心最强的时候。我记得,我的脸通红,我的声音颤抖,我的心象插了一把刀子。
我是小地方来的学生,知识很有限,所以上课很少发言,以至于一个学期过去了认识我的老师都没有几个。到了期末的时候,班主任下课前忽然点我的名字叫我去办公室。站在她的办公桌前,她一脸惊讶地说:“原来最高分是你。”成绩好再也不用申请补助了,我很自豪,因为每年可以拿到800元的一等专业奖学金。不要笑,师大的一等就是这么少。不过就这么少,也差不多够我的住宿费了。其他的费用我再想办法。功课好点以后,我开始打工。我曾经大二的时候负责做整层楼的清洁,也给系里的一个老师整理文件,然后拿到50块钱。大二下半学期开始做家教,做翻译,终于可以不用做体力活而养活自己了。回想起来,在最好的年龄,我却是那样一个灰头土脸的mm,穿着很土气的衣服,一脸的菜色。大四的时候,当我某天终于换了一件小绿毛衣,宿舍的mm忽然说:“××,其实你长得很好看哎。”在那个最美丽的年龄,我们都是美女。可是在我心里,美丽总是属于别人的,绝不可能属于象我这样的贫困mm。
大四我拿到的最大的一笔奖学金是来自国外一个银行,一共4000块钱。我拿出1000元给班主任,让她把这些钱分给贫困生。用这些钱,他们应该再也不用在全班同学面前说自己为什么贫困了吧?贫困不是我们的错,贫困生比别人更需要一些小自尊。
再后来,我保送研究生,然后拿到了很多很多奖学金。我攒着这些钱,考托考G。加上同学老师的资助,后来来到了北美。现在我有RA 和TA,还在图书馆兼职做information assistant,生活好了很多。可是,苦日子里养成的“小气”,却总也改不过来。LG总是说我应该买些更贵的化妆品,更漂亮的衣服。其实我的化妆品已经很不错了,衣服也很好,但我花钱却总是做不到“大手大脚”。我会常常想起那些贫困的岁月,那些心情和那些经历。
那么多年,我都没掉过几滴眼泪。然而今天敲这些字的时候我却流泪了。脚下的路越走越宽,但没有过去那些日子,我就永远无法成就现在的我。又一年要过去,我想起所有帮助过鼓励我的同学和老师。我想给你们深深鞠个躬,说一句感谢。
当年老师临别送我的诗是郑板桥歌颂兰花的,我想老师是希望我能在恶劣的环境里成长吧。这些年,我一直记得,以后也不会忘记:
身在千山顶上头,突岩深缝妙香稠。非无脚下浮云闹,来不相知去不留。
谨以此文记载那段岁月,也和比我贫困和跟我一样贫困的贫困生同学共勉。--
※ 修改:·qianning 于 Dec 14 03:33:24 2008 修改本文·[FROM: 132.216.73.*]※ 来源:·水木社区 http://newsmth.net·[FROM: 76.68.244.*]

2008年12月26日星期五

球评

如果说输给骑士还有点壮烈的话,今天输黄蜂就完全只剩下郁闷了。

可怜的T-Mac,又一次被央视的支持人炮轰。比炮轰更甚,已经接近刻薄了。他们忘了,不久以前他们是怎么夸赞1号的视野、意识、能力的。不过,我也不喜欢T-Mac,赢球的时侯他会很兴奋,输球的时侯不管输成什么样子,从没见过他懊丧。这个跟Yao差别大了。T-Mac虽然不行了,不过还没有完全死透。相信过不了多久,他还是可以让大徐、张合理和杨毅们为他叫好的。

钱德勒彪了。完全是被裁判激发出来的斗志。看见他坐在地上挥拳头的时侯,就知道这场不妙了。最后的篮板球,Yao自然是有责任的。以钱的身高、弹跳和憋足的那口气,Yao没有胜算的。我估计他那个时侯脑袋里面都是浆糊了。

Yao还是一如既往的敬业。可是这个场子里面光敬业是没有用的。要么你运气好,队友强,教练强,一路顺风。要么,有K81那样逆天的能力和气势。虽然我都说过好几遍了:Yao不行呵,哎!

火箭今天运气差点,Scola状态糟糕,Battier三分N投一中。还有Rafer,这些人当中但凡有一个小小的彪一下,不会等到最后三分钟了。黄蜂这边CP今天正常,实力使然。West有点彪。轮到火箭倒霉。

连败了。Yao回去打魔兽了,心想反正我钱也拿够了。可怜的弗朗西斯,来CBA吧。

2008年12月21日星期日

小龙女

今天跟老婆看电视剧《原来爱上贼》。其中那个师奶实在是眼熟,最后看到字幕“陈玉莲服装提供”的时候,突然想起来,这张脸不是小龙女是谁?

20多年啦!整个人完全变了样,狠狠的感叹了一把。回想起当年,我还是小学生,还是初中生的时候看到录像厅门口就是贴的这样的广告:

《神雕侠侣》
刘德华,陈玉莲




2008年12月18日星期四

考研

帮助大四的学生复习考研。做了一套研究生的数学分析试题,150分大约只能得120。

(1) 级数收敛的比较判别,就是a(n)除b(n)的极限 的那个,必须要正项才对。错了一个判断题,还给别人讲题。幸亏有个学生记得结论和反例。

(2)设a(n)正的单调增序列,讨论级数\sum (a(n+1)-a(n))/a(n+1)的收敛性。完全没有想到最后结论这么干脆if and only if a(n)有界。跟一个学生同时挂在黑板上证,学生先证出来。就是这个人,今天第一次见,开始好像什么都不懂。结果。。。。。我一直以为自己软分析很不错的。惭愧

(3)如果一个函数平方的黎曼积分等于0,证明此函数黎曼可积并且黎曼积分为0。不许用实变。不容易阿,我在黑板上一直证到5点多,还一边跟同学商量着写。

这套题目特别,完全没有技巧题。不过,分量很重。同学们都说像“名师”作品:)

2008年12月15日星期一

终于等到接收函了

2007年暑假写完的文章啊,被鄙视,再投稿,反复修改。一年半了,就在我打算写信给编辑撤销投稿的时候,终于接收了。
新的文章还有bug要改。常常觉得这么小的结果,没有什么credit的东西,为什么这么费劲。郁闷!

2008年12月4日星期四

转贴之转贴,Poincare关于数学心理学的演讲。

发信人: alexanger(唐老鸭), 信区: math
标 题: 转载一篇庞加莱关于数学发现心理学的经典演讲
发信站: 饮水思源 (2008年11月30日23:34:36 星期天)

感谢微软百科全书收藏了科学美国人曾经重新刊印的这篇经典演讲。

以下是导读和自己的一点感想,如果不想被先入为主地干扰请略过直接浏览全文:

在读《数学领域发现的心理学》的时候看到脚注里面提到庞加莱的这篇演讲。最喜欢数学家讲problem solving心理学了。认知科学家、神经科学家没有数学家解决复杂问题时候的心理体验,所以做的研究缺乏一些也许只能靠内省来获得的知识,而且使用的问题也趋于简单。而数学家又往往不通心理学,或者干脆就不关心问题到底是怎么解决的,只关心能否解决。 所幸庞加莱,这个被称为最后一位全才的人,对解题的心理学也非常有兴趣和研究。在演讲中可以发现,他对于自己解决数学问题过程中的心理过程作了深刻的反省,虽然庞加莱不是认知神经科学家,但演讲中的使用的类比以及描述基本上都是靠谱的。

其中最有意思的是他也提到了自己的几次顿悟的瞬间(其中有一次就是著名的踏上马车一瞬间想到解的那次)。 庞加莱认为下意识里面会对问题的各个元素(条件)进行组合,然后根据人对于知识的某种美感上的偏好筛选出来,那些足够"美"的东西就会浮上意识层面,于是产生顿悟。这也是我看了一些认知科学的书之后得到的说法。但此外庞加莱同时也认为下意识进行的探索是相当多的,他认为也许远远大于意识层面进行的探索(组合)。而我倾向于认为下意识层面能进行的逻辑推理是有限远的,一般一到两步就了不得了。下意识里面更多的进行的是某种模糊的模式匹配,或者说模糊联想。这就是为什么对问题有一个全局感性认识那么重要的原因,这样的认识足够模糊足够全局,有助于提取出重要的相关知识来。此外,一个总体的认识往往包含了问题的最重要(往往也是最本质的)要素,将这些要素同时装进工作记忆有着非常重要的意义——使它们有机会组合在一起,衍生出新的知识。否则就是陷在在问题的某个局部(某几个局部条件)下,得到不相干的知识。

另外他也提到了对问题整体理解的另一个好处:当你对解的大致过程有了一个整体认识之后,即便缺乏某个局部的细节,也可以在这个整体视图的指导下将其推导出来(填充出来)。说到这里顺便说一个有关的思维心理学实验:大家知道围棋高手能够记忆非常复杂的残局,而新手简直连半部残局也记忆不了。原因其实就是围棋高手具有领域知识:对各种各样围棋套路的知识,对各种局面的形态的知识。有了这些知识,只要记住局面的一个大概,就可以推导出那些细节了。事实上,当让高手们记忆一盘毫无规律放置的棋局时,他们的表现并不比门外汉好。

以下是全文转载(via):(文章不长;况且,如果庞加莱的文章不值得你捏着鼻子看中古英文,什么人的才值得呢?:-))

Mathematical Creation

How is mathematics made? What sort of brain is it that can compose the propositions and systems of mathematics? How do the mental processes of the geometer or algebraist compare with those of the musician, the poet, the painter, the chess player? In mathematical creation which are the key elements? Intuition? An exquisite sense of space and time? The precision of a calculating machine? A powerful memory? Formidable skill in following complex logical sequences? A supreme capacity for concentration?

The essay below, delivered in the first years of this century as a lecture before the Psychological Society in Paris, is the most celebrated of the attempts to describe what goes on in the mathematician's brain. Its author, Henri Poincaré, cousin of Raymond, the politician, was peculiarly fitted to undertake the task. One of the foremost mathematicians of all time, unrivaled as an analyst and mathematical physicist, Poincaré was known also as a brilliantly lucid expositor of the philosophy of science. These writings are of the first importance as professional treatises for scientists and are at the same time accessible, in large part, to the understanding of the thoughtful layman.

Poincaré on Mathematical Creation

The genesis of mathematical creation is a problem which should intensely interest the psychologist. It is the activity in which the human mind seems to take least from the outside world, in which it acts or seems to act only of itself and on itself, so that in studying the procedure of geometric thought we may hope to reach what is most essential in man's mind...

A first fact should surprise us, or rather would surprise us if we were not so used to it. How does it happen there are people who do not understand mathematics? If mathematics invokes only the rules of logic, such as are accepted by all normal minds; if its evidence is based on principles common to all men, and that none could deny without being mad, how does it come about that so many persons are here refractory?

That not every one can invent is nowise mysterious. That not every one can retain a demonstration once learned may also pass. But that not every one can understand mathematical reasoning when explained appears very surprising when we think of it. And yet those who can follow this reasoning only with difficulty are in the majority; that is undeniable, and will surely not be gainsaid by the experience of secondary-school teachers.

And further: how is error possible in mathematics? A sane mind should not be guilty of a logical fallacy, and yet there are very fine minds who do not trip in brief reasoning such as occurs in the ordinary doings of life, and who are incapable of following or repeating without error the mathematical demonstrations which are longer, but which after all are only an accumulation of brief reasonings wholly analogous to those they make so easily. Need we add that mathematicians themselves are not infallible?...

As for myself, I must confess, I am absolutely incapable even of adding without mistakes... My memory is not bad, but it would be insufficient to make me a good chess-player. Why then does it not fail me in a difficult piece of mathematical reasoning where most chess-players would lose themselves? Evidently because it is guided by the general march of the reasoning. A mathematical demonstration is not a simple juxtaposition of syllogisms, it is syllogisms placed in a certain order, and the order in which these elements are placed is much more important than the elements themselves. If I have the feeling, the intuition, so to speak, of this order, so as to perceive at a glance the reasoning as a whole, I need no longer fear lest I forget one of the elements, for each of them will take its allotted place in the array, and that without any effort of memory on my part.

We know that this feeling, this intuition of mathematical order, that makes us divine hidden harmonies and relations, cannot be possessed by every one. Some will not have either this delicate feeling so difficult to define, or a strength of memory and attention beyond the ordinary, and then they will be absolutely incapable of understanding higher mathematics. Such are the majority. Others will have this feeling only in a slight degree, but they will be gifted with an uncommon memory and a great power of attention. They will learn by heart the details one after another; they can understand mathematics and sometimes make applications, but they cannot create. Others, finally, will possess in a less or greater degree the special intuition referred to, and then not only can they understand mathematics even if their memory is nothing extraordinary, but they may become creators and try to invent with more or less success according as this intuition is more or less developed in them.

In fact, what is mathematical creation? It does not consist in making new combinations with mathematical entities already known. Anyone could do that, but the combinations so made would be infinite in number and most of them absolutely without interest. To create consists precisely in not making useless combinations and in making those which are useful and which are only a small minority. Invention is discernment, choice.

It is time to penetrate deeper and to see what goes on in the very soul of the mathematician. For this, I believe, I can do best by recalling memories of my own. But I shall limit myself to telling how I wrote my first memoir on Fuchsian functions. I beg the reader's pardon; I am about to use some technical expressions, but they need not frighten him, for he is not obliged to understand them. I shall say, for example, that I have found the demonstration of such a theorem under such circumstances. This theorem will have a barbarous name, unfamiliar to many, but that is unimportant; what is of interest for the psychologist is not the theorem but the circumstances.

For fifteen days I strove to prove that there could not be any functions like those I have since called Fuchsian functions. I was then very ignorant; every day I seated myself at my work table, stayed an hour or two, tried a great number of combinations and reached no results. One evening, contrary to my custom, I drank black coffee and could not sleep. Ideas rose in crowds; I felt them collide until pairs interlocked, so to speak, making a stable combination. By the next morning I had established the existence of a class of Fuchsian functions, those which come from the hypergeometric series; I had only to write out the results, which took but a few hours.

Then I wanted to represent these functions by the quotient of two series; this idea was perfectly conscious and deliberate, the analogy with elliptic functions guided me. I asked myself what properties these series must have if they existed, and I succeeded without difficulty in forming the series I have called theta-Fuchsian.

Just at this time I left Caen, where I was then living, to go on a geologic excursion under the auspices of the school of mines. The changes of travel made me forget my mathematical work. Having reached Coutances, we entered an omnibus to go some place or other. At the moment when I put my foot on the step the idea came to me, without anything in my former thoughts seeming to have paved the way for it, that the transformations I had used to define the Fuchsian functions were identical with those of non-Euclidean geometry. I did not verify the idea; I should not have had time, as, upon taking my seat in the omnibus, I went on with a conversation already commenced, but I felt a perfect certainty. On my return to Caen, for conscience's sake I verified the result at my leisure.

Then I turned my attention to the study of some arithmetical questions apparently without much success and without a suspicion of any connection with my preceding researches. Disgusted with my failure, I went to spend a few days at the seaside, and thought of something else. One morning, walking on the bluff, the idea came to me, with just the same characteristics of brevity, suddenness and immediate certainty that the arithmetic transformations of indeterminate ternary quadratic forms were identical with those of non-Euclidean geometry.

Returned to Caen, I meditated on this result and deduced the consequences. The example of quadratic forms showed me that there were Fuchsian groups other than those corresponding to the hypergeometric series; I saw that I could apply to them the theory of theta-Fuchsian series and that consequently there existed Fuchsian functions other than those from the hypergeometric series, the ones I then knew. Naturally I set myself to form all these functions. I made a sys
tematic attack upon them and carried all the outworks, one after another. There was one, however, that still held out, whose fall would involve that of the whole place. But all my efforts only served at first the better to show me the difficulty, which indeed was something. All this work was perfectly conscious.

Thereupon I left for Mont-Valérien, where I was to go through my military service; so I was very differently occupied. One day, going along the street, the solution of the difficulty which had stopped me suddenly appeared to me. I did not try to go deep into it immediately, and only after my service did I again take up the question. I had all the elements and had only to arrange them and put them together. So I wrote out my final memoir at a single stroke and without difficulty.

I shall limit myself to this single example; it is useless to multiply them...

Most striking at first is this appearance of sudden illumination, a manifest sign of long, unconscious prior work. The role of this unconscious work in mathematical invention appears to me incontestable, and traces of it would be found in other cases where it is less evident. Often when one works at a hard question, nothing good is accomplished at the first attack. Then one takes a rest, longer or shorter, and sits down anew to the work. During the first half-hour, as before, nothing is found, and then all of a sudden the decisive idea presents itself to the mind...

There is another remark to be made about the conditions of this unconscious work; it is possible, and of a certainty it is only fruitful, if it is on the one hand preceded and on the other hand followed by a period of conscious work. These sudden inspirations (and the examples already cited prove this) never happen except after some days of voluntary effort which has appeared absolutely fruitless and whence nothing good seems to have come, where the way taken seems totally astray. These efforts then have not been as sterile as one thinks; they have set agoing the unconscious machine and without them it would not have moved and would have produced nothing...

Such are the realities; now for the thoughts they force upon us. The unconscious, or, as we say, the subliminal self plays an important role in mathematical creation; this follows from what we have said. But usually the subliminal self is considered as purely automatic. Now we have seen that mathematical work is not simply mechanical, that it could not be done by a machine, however perfect. It is not merely a question of applying rules, of making the most combinations possible according to certain fixed laws. The combinations so obtained would be exceedingly numerous, useless and cumbersome. The true work of the inventor consists in choosing among these combinations so as to eliminate the useless ones or rather to avoid the trouble of making them, and the rules which must guide this choice are extremely fine and delicate. It is almost impossible to state them precisely; they are felt rather than formulated. Under these conditions, how imagine a sieve capable of applying them mechanically?

A first hypothesis now presents itself; the subliminal self is in no way inferior to the conscious self; it is not purely automatic; it is capable of discernment; it has tact, delicacy; it knows how to choose, to divine. What do I say? It knows better how to divine than the conscious self, since it succeeds where that has failed. In a word, is not the subliminal self superior to the conscious self? You recognize the full importance of this question...

Is this affirmative answer forced upon us by the facts I have just given? I confess that, for my part, I should hate to accept it. Re-examine the facts then and see if they are not compatible with another explanation.

It is certain that the combinations which present themselves to the mind in a sort of sudden illumination, after an unconscious working somewhat prolonged, are generally useful and fertile combinations, which seem the result of a first impression. Does it follow that the subliminal self, having divined by a delicate intuition that these combinations would be useful, has formed only these, or has it rather formed many others which were lacking in interest and have remained unconscious?

In this second way of looking at it, all the combinations would be formed in consequence of the automatism of the subliminal self, but only the interesting ones would break into the domain of consciousness. And this is still very mysterious. What is the cause that, among the thousand products of our unconscious activity, some are called to pass the threshold, while others remain below? Is it a simple chance which confers this privilege? Evidently not; among all the stimuli of our senses, for example, only the most intense fix our attention, unless it has been drawn to them by other causes. More generally the privileged unconscious phenomena, those susceptible of becoming conscious, are those which, directly or indirectly, affect most profoundly our emotional sensibility.

It may be surprising to see emotional sensibility invoked à propos of mathematical demonstrations which, it would seem, can interest only the intellect. This would be to forget the feeling of mathematical beauty, of the harmony of numbers and forms, of geometric elegance. This is a true esthetic feeling that all real mathematicians know, and surely it belongs to emotional sensibility.


Now, what are the mathematic entities to which we attribute this character of beauty and elegance, and which are capable of developing in us a sort of esthetic emotion? They are those whose elements are harmoniously disposed so that the mind without effort can embrace their totality while realizing the details. This harmony is at once a satisfaction of our esthetic needs and an aid to the mind, sustaining and guiding. And at the same time, in putting under our eyes a well-ordered whole, it makes us foresee a mathematical law... Thus it is this special esthetic sensibility which plays the role of the delicate sieve of which I spoke, and that sufficiently explains why the one lacking it will never be a real creator.

Yet all the difficulties have not disappeared. The conscious self is narrowly limited, and as for the subliminal self we know not its limitations, and this is why we are not too reluctant in supposing that it has been able in a short time to make more different combinations than the whole life of a conscious being could encompass. Yet these limitations exist. Is it likely that it is able to form all the possible combinations, whose number would frighten the imagination? Nevertheless that would seem necessary, because if it produces only a small part of these combinations, and if it makes them at random, there would be small chance that the good, the one we should choose, would be found among them.

Perhaps we ought to seek the explanation in that preliminary period of conscious work which always precedes all fruitful unconscious labor. Permit me a rough comparison. Figure the future elements of our combinations as something like the hooked atoms of Epicurus. During the complete repose of the mind, these atoms are motionless, they are, so to speak, hooked to the wall...

On the other hand, during a period of apparent rest and unconscious work, certain of them are detached from the wall and put in motion. They flash in every direction through the space (I was about to say the room) where they are enclosed, as would, for example, a swarm of gnats or, if you prefer a more learned comparison, like the molecules of gas in the kinematic theory of gases. Then their mutual impacts may produce new combinations.

What is the role of the preliminary conscious work? It is evidently to mobilize certain of these atoms, to unhook them from the wall and put them in swing. We think we have done no good, because we have moved these elements a thousand different ways in seeking to assemble them, and have found no satisfactory aggregate. But, after this shaking up imposed upon them by our will, these atoms do not return to their primitive rest. They freely continue their dance.

Now, our will did not choose them at random; it pursued a perfectly determined aim. The mobilized atoms are therefore not any atoms whatsoever; they are those from which we might reasonably expect the desired solution. Then the mobilized atoms undergo impacts which make them enter into combinations among themselves or with other atoms at rest which they struck against in their course. Again I beg pardon, my comparison is very rough, but I scarcely know how otherwise to make my thought understood.

However it may be, the only combinations that have a chance of forming are those where at least one of the elements is one of those atoms freely chosen by our will. Now, it is evidently among these that is found what I called the good combination. Perhaps this is a way of lessening the paradoxical in the original hypothesis...

I shall make a last remark: when above I made certain personal observations, I spoke of a night of excitement when I worked in spite of myself. Such cases are frequent, and it is not necessary that the abnormal cerebral activity be caused by a physical excitant as in that I mentioned. It seems, in such cases, that one is present at his own unconscious work, made partially perceptible to the over-excited consciousness, yet without having changed its nature. Then we vaguely comprehend what distinguishes the two mechanisms or, if you wish, the working methods of the two egos. And the psychologic observations I have been able thus to make seem to me to confirm in their general outlines the views I have given.

Surely they have need of [confirmation], for they are and remain in spite of all very hypothetical: the interest of the questions is so great that I do not repent of having submitted them to the reader.

2008年12月2日星期二

积分第二中值定理的一个证明

1。真不容易,总算是把证明发到blog上面来了。方法如下:先写latex,然后用latex2html转成html文件。所有的公式变成图片。然后把html的代码放进blog里面来。这段代码确保图片出现在合理的位置,以合理的大小。是latex2html生成的。
2。图片是大问题,google,sina提供的那些照片空间都故意采用了随机的文件名和路径名。邪恶!我到处找免费的主页空间,终于让我找到了一个。把文件都传上去,然后用文本编辑器的replaceall功能把html代码中的url全部改过来。这样就可以用了:)
3。这个证明不容易,我构思它到晚上1点。虽然可能不是新的,不过我是自己想的。思路过程就不写了,反复简化到如今的样子。虽然还是有点hand-waving。(菲赫金戈尔茨的证明也很好,我感觉就是离散化之后,用Abel求和公式。他们都用来证明Abel和Dirichlet的判别法,有这个联系是应该的。虽然我几年没有见过Abel的求和公式了。)
4。我知道很多专业人士看这个blog的,拜托检查下错了没有。要是错了,麻烦留个言。
5。图片有些不理想,比如莫名其妙的黑线和灰色,我想那应该是latex2html的bug。以前处理过黑线,现在懒得干了。等他们自己升级吧。

latex2html这个软件应该有windows版的。我从ubuntu里面直接apt-get install latex2html就行了。

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定理:设$ f(x)$$ [a,b]$上Riemann可积,$ g(x)$$ [a,b]$上单调降但非负。则存在 $ \xi\in [a,b]$, 使得
$\displaystyle \int_a^b f(x)g(x)dx=g(a)\int_a^\xi f(x)dx.$

证明: 不妨设$ g(a)=1$。令

$\displaystyle F(x)=\int_a^x f(s)ds$

$\displaystyle G(x)=\int_a^x f(s)g(s)ds.$

原命题等价于对任何$ x$存在 $ \xi\in [a,x]$使得

$\displaystyle G(x)=F(\xi).$

这又等价与
$\displaystyle \max_{s\in [a,x]}G(s)\geq \max_{s\in [a,x]}F(s)$

$\displaystyle \min_{s\in [a,x]}G(s)\leq \min_{s\in [a,x]}F(s).$

把命题转化成这个样子的好处是可以用逼近的证法。断言:只要对阶梯的$ f$证明命题即可。如果不然,上面变成严格大于(小于)的不等式,然后用阶梯函数的情况一逼近就找到矛盾了。

变成阶梯函数,就等于把原来可积的$ f$的复杂变化都去掉了。那么初等的有限次的讨论,就可以用了。如果$ f$非负,那么$ F$单调,对应的情形易见是对的。如果我们只证明关于max的那个不等式,那么我们关心$ F$的极小点(左右都有比它严格大的那种)。不妨设只有一个$ t$。设$ F(x)$$ [p,t]$上单调降,在$ [t,q]$上单调增,而且$ F(p)=F(q)$。并且取$ p$尽可能小,$ q$尽可能大。

由于$ g$的单调性,

$\displaystyle G(p)-G(t)\leq G(q)-G(t).$

因此,如果$ f$能够成为反例的话,还不如让$ f$$ [p,q]$之间为零,也就是说让$ F(x)$$ p,q$之间是常数。这样的话,这个极小点(左右都有比它严格大的那种)就不存在了。最合适做反例的竟然是单调函数,但是单调函数不是反例。所以命题成立。

2008年12月1日星期一

先灌个水

发信人: ufo007 (),
信区: Mathematics
标 题: 天才也分三六九等。原创,请指教。
发信站: 水木社区 (Mon Dec 1 19:51:33 2008), 站内

历史上有无数的天才数学家。在平常人眼里他们都是天才,但是如果在这些天才之间进行比较那么就能看到谁更天才一些。天才也不一样,也是分三六九等的。当然人类历史那么长,天才挑了又挑,选了又选,依然很多。下面比较的这些天才不敢说任何一个评论他们都在前五,但是肯定不出前十。古代的阿基米德咱们就不参评了。

牛顿无疑是一个天才,但是这人做人有问题,小心眼,为了名誉不择手段,喋喋不休的诽谤人家。单就数学上来讲,他也就能得到C的成绩。丫在数学上最重要的成就就是创立了微积分。微积分的创立无疑是数学史和人类思想史上的一次飞跃。但是公允的评价是他使用错误的方法得到了正确的结论。就思想深度上比莱布尼茨差远了,所以给他一个C我想应该不会引起太大争论。

欧拉一个号称一生发表了800多篇论文,40天就出一篇的家伙。我一直怀疑如果那个时候有bbs,他一定是个称职的水手。欧拉在于掌握了分析这个有力的武器。类似于独孤求败的重剑“重剑无锋,大巧不工”。关键在于对于分析方法的掌握,属于方法论。分析的方法用在数学上,如果用在化学上能不能也有巨大的贡献呢?我认为也不会差。欧拉最大的功绩是扩展了微积分的领域,也就是在前人的基础上扩宽,单就欧拉的成绩有没有颠覆人类思维的重大突破呢?似乎还没有。所以给天才欧拉一个B。

下面说说数学小王子高斯。高斯的研究领域很广,而且在研究的领域几乎都是开创性的工作,也就是做前人未作之事,单就这个来讲,高斯就比欧拉高一筹。他的代数基本定理无疑是重要的,他的非欧几何无疑是对人类思想的一次颠覆。但是颠覆到高斯自己都害怕,生前不敢发表,害怕同时代的人无法理解。所以他简直是与牛顿截然相反的两类人。使用正确的方法得到了正确的结果,他自己却怀疑,能说高斯在自觉的探求数学的本质么?所以给天才高斯一个A-。

高斯开创了非欧几何,就当时来讲也算惊世骇俗了,但是他不敢发表说明他自己也不确信非欧几何是正确的。但是下面这位英雄少年从一开始就知道自己是多么正确,可惜的是其它的当时的天才与他的思想相比,具有世纪的差距,他就是加罗华。对于加罗华的成就,我认为人类晚认识一天,人类就多损失一天。他的群论对于数学本质的研究,简直就是无招胜有招。几千年来一种叫方程的东西一直屏蔽着人们认识数学的眼睛。加罗华把数学同质的东西抽取出来,抛弃掉他们的外壳。每每看到墙上那少年的英姿,都觉得太可惜了。不单是对他个人,对他那个时代,如果没有那场决斗,你绝对无法想象那个天才他还那么年轻,他还会迸发出什么样颠覆人类思想史的东西来。加罗华我认为是天才中必须得A的天才中的天才。他是本人最佩服的数学家。或者从一个革命者的角度他也是令人敬佩的悲剧英雄。

黎曼,可能与上述人还无法相提并论,但是我不得不提一下。他更象郭靖,他给人留下印象的并非在于巧妙,而在于深刻。所以我给这位天才一个C+.

希尔伯特这位离现在最近的大师,经常有人把他排入数学家的前三位,他到底是数学家还是哲学家?噢,我真的不知道该给他什么样的分数。

以上仅是本人观点,欢迎各位拍砖。

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可怜人已经被拍的够呛了。本来想把评论都转过来的,格式比较难调整。
Galois的故事确实动人,不过要坐在Gauss头上是不是过了。最过分的是Riemann的C+。